Wednesday, September 19, 2007

running hurts!

... well, it's not so much pain exactly, it's more like leaden feet and having to work really hard to breathe and sometimes getting lightheaded. At one point during Tuesday's run I really thought I might fall over. And I'm not even really running that much! I'm still on my run-walk-run-walk routine, although I did increase my total distance to three miles. Even with the increase, I thought that since I've been doing this for a little while now, it would begin to get easier. But then my dear encouraging friend Justin gave me these inspiring words: "When you're running, you hate everything." So now I understand. No, I'm not quitting, I will continue to go out on Tuesday and Saturday mornings and make myself miserable for the better part of an hour ... and wonder, as I stumble up the stairs to take a shower, why I do this to myself .... and then do it again the next time. What is this?!

(seriously - any runners who are reading - does it ever start to feel less awful?)


justin said...

It should be noted, oh persistent one, that my happy little story was in the context of a 5K race. :-P People who are running competitively in those will tell you that they are little more than a masochistic death sprint. That's the nature of the 5K, too short to really pace yourself on, but long enough for your pain receptors to get going full throttle. Now, training runs, group runs, and longer runs, can all be much more enjoyable. But there is some truth to the notion that a great deal of running is pain endurance. We gladly welcome you to our ranks, Sheila! :-D

Pete said...

Hey Sheila! I enjoyed the blogpost. I agree with everything Justin said in his comment, but have a few words of my own: a lot of what you're feeling definitely still sounds like that of one who is dealing with something relatively new AND physically demanding.
My Dad still jokes with me about a certain translation of a scripture verse in one of Paul's epistles that says "buffet your body daily". Dad normally says "buffet" in the form of the all-you-can-eat food conglomeration, which prompts the image of exhausting yourself and feeling terrible. But I think Paul meant buff-et - train - your body. Paul no doubt was a great athlete himself, but he never says in his epistle that it's easy. I'm reminded of your exhausting days in Allendale. Achieving a goal that is physically demanding is not always fun or pain free. It's just the nature of the beast.
But the more you do it, your body DOES adjust. Now I don't encourage most people to be crazy like me and START my race experience with 3 marathons in a matter of 1.5 years. But case in point, training is hard. You feel sore a lot of the time, including a week straight following the marathon itself.
"Where I am weak, He is strong."

Pete said...

I should also mention, Sheila, that you don't see the health benefits of what you're doing now - while you're tired and in pain. But you have no idea what good things your physical activity will do for your body in the long run. You are preemptively fighting disease and infection, and you probably didn't even know it! Take it from a Nursing Assistant.

Dee Kellan said...

I just stumbled upon your blog- it's been a year, are you still running?

I ask because I struggle with running as well. Having admitted that, I can assure you that it does get better. As you become stronger and faster, the pace you USED to run will feel relaxing because you've grown to new levels of endurance. So, running always hurts in a way, but that is because with the same level of exertion and pain-endurance, you are going farther, faster. Hang in there.